Trapped in a bad dream,

Falling endlessly,

Deeper each day,

There’s no waking up,

No second chances,

Not for me.

No feelings.

Got tricked into loving more and more,

Got tricked in letting go,

Only to be abandoned 2 feet away from the rest of our life.

I don’t feel betrayed,

I feel robbed,

Robbed of the life we built,

Just when it was about to begin,

Robbed of the altar,

Robbed of my future children.

I want to wake up and feel again.

Feel something, anything.

Never again!


We have forgotten

We have forgotten to forgive,

We have forgotten to believe,

We have forgotten to communicate, to say what’s wrong.

We have forgotten because we wanted the easy way out,

We have forgotten because we don’t believe in change.

We have forgotten to fight,

We are forgotten.

One day

One day, I don’t know when,

When you’ll remember more than vain,

More than the petite things that hurt you,

When you’ll have lived, and loved, and sinned,

With much beloved freedom,

The one you never knew when young,

For which you sacrificed your love,

Forgetful freedom.

You’ll wake up breathing in,

A long forgotten scent,

Not knowing where it came from.

You’ll search the shape that calmed you down,

On which you’d fall asleep,

Draining your thoughts in moments just.

What happened to the loving arms,

That wrapped around you?

You’ve chased away the love,

The one that never wronged you,

Embraced the distance without a fight,

And let the tide of emptiness,

Engulf you.


Not knowing how men are,

You will believe and trust again,

In clever mannered wolfs you’ll try

To find the shoulder that you loved,

To find that idealized love.

Random thoughts…

Too much about nothing

Awaiting to be lifted from our own despair
We have forgotten to acknowledge
That happiness is giving more,
Not looking elsewhere.
We have abandoned ourselves,
Out of desire to be rescued
Instead of rescuing ourselves
Through th’other that awaits the rescue.
The cries for help were overshadowed
A wall of inner screaming
That we’ve created so that we
Are insulated from its meaning.
To insulate though we have failed,
Through emotions’ isolation
We only managed to destroy,
What we have thought for all this time;
A life of greater feelings.